Today We Remember The Heroes

On this day, May 30th, 2011, we pause to remember and pay tribute to not only the brave men and women who have given the last full measure of devotion to protect and serve their country, but also the families of these heroes who have lost a loved one in the line of duty.

As the words Abraham Lincoln wrote to Mrs. Bixby in November 1864 say:

“I feel how weak and fruitless must be any word of mine which should attempt to beguile you from the grief of a loss so overwhelming. But I cannot refrain from tendering you the consolation that may be found in the thanks of the Republic they died to save.

I pray that our Heavenly Father may assuage the anguish of your bereavement, and leave you only the cherished memory of the loved and lost, and the solemn pride that must be yours to have laid so costly a sacrifice upon the altar of freedom.”

To all who have served, I thank you.  You are all Heroes. Today, we remember!

 

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Taking the Plunge

After publishing the post, Excited for Nothing, on May 16th, I put in a call to my doctor’s office about the medication issues that I had been experiencing. I explained to the nurse that while the stomach issues I had been dealing with while on Janumet had subsided, the Glipizide was doing nothing to help lower my blood glucose levels.  They had, in fact, shot up.  Something needed to be done about it, and fast.

I told the nurse that I had previously mentioned to the doctor that I would be willing to give injectable medications a try, but that the doctor hadn’t wanted to put me through that if it wasn’t necessary.  I basically told her to tell the doctor that I really didn’t give a shit about having to deal with injections, and that I would try anything if it would help me.

My doctor apparently got the message and took me at my word; I received a call back later that afternoon saying the doctor was putting me on Byetta.  Now, I had already done my research on Byetta because it was one of the medications I mentioned to the doctor previously, and was dumbfounded when the nurse said the words “It’s Insulin”.  I knew it wasn’t, and couldn’t stop myself from telling her otherwise.  Anyone who knows me already knows how well that went over, so there’s no need to go into a rant about a rant. 🙂

So yeah, I’m now taking two (2) 5 mcg injections of Byetta every day and, so far, it really hasn’t been that big of a deal.  The most common side effect I’ve heard about is nausea, but I really haven’t experienced much of that.  I have noticed that I’m experiencing a bit more heart burn than usual.  Acid Stomach is listed as a side effect of Byetta, but considering that I deal with Acid Reflux anyway, it’s really hard to tell whether it’s an old gripe or a new pain in the ass.  I guess time will tell.

The biggest benefit so far is that I’m starting to see an improvement in my glucose readings.  Hopefully, that trend will continue.  🙂

And I must say that I’ve taken to the whole injection thing rather well.  For all my preaching,  “I’ll try anything”, I was admittedly a bit nervous about the whole thing.  But much like the timidness that I felt when I first started poking my fingers to test my blood sugar, the nervousness over the injections has quickly subsided.  It’s amazing what you can get used to doing when you have to do it to survive.

I know I’ve said this before, as have many others in the diabetes online community, but it bears repeating again.

There is an enormous stigma, particularly among people with type 2 diabetes, that having to switch to injectable medications, whether it be insulin, Byetta, Victoza, etc…, means that they are a failure in terms of diabetes management.  And many people resist the move to such treatment options because of that.

Simply put, that stigma is bullshit and it’s bad for you.

Each person’s diabetes is different and, not surprisingly, what may work for one person in terms of treatment may not work for someone else.   Each person living with this disease has to do what is best for them.  If using insulin, Byetta, or some other injectable is what’s best, then so be it.  No one should be made to feel bad about doing what is best for their own well being.

Each and every day that we survive this disease is a win. And with an opponent like diabetes, you’ve got to win by any means necessary!

Speaking of which, it’s time to shoot up again.  Ciao!

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Extra! Extra! Read all about…Me!

As you may already know, I have been fortunate enough to have my diagnosis story picked up and published in the Summer 2011 issue of Diabetic Living Magazine.  That issue went on sale May 17th.

Many thanks to Kelly Rawlings for making this possible!

I am super excited about this event, and even more excited about being able to share it with you here on My Diabetic Heart. And I’d love to hear from you after you read it. So drop a comment below. Enjoy!

My Story: Type 2 Diabetes Saved My Life

This PDF file is: “REPRINTED WITH PERMISSION FROM DIABETIC LlVING®
MAGAZINE. e COPYRIGHT 2011 MEREDITH CORPORATION. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.”  http://www.diabeticlivingonline.com

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Excited for Nothing

Today’s Garfield cartoon over at www.garfield.com seems to be the perfect illustration for how I’m feeling about the problems I’ve been having with my blood sugars and medications lately.

My doctor discontinued my use of Janumet because of the nasty stomach side effects that were wreaking havoc on my life.  That medication was doing wonderful things for my blood glucose levels, but the side effects were too much to deal with.

When the doctor said she was putting my back on Glipizide, I was excited about the change because I knew the stomach side effects would go away, and that I’d be on a medication that had worked well on my blood glucose control when I was initially diagnosed.  I said, I was excited.

Over the last two weeks, that excitement has morphed into a feeling of desperation, as I’ve realized that while the stomach problems are gone, the medication is doing nothing to help my blood glucose levels.

So, much like Garfield, I was out on a limb, an old “friend” appeared to be coming to help, yet ended up taking a leak on the tree and annoying the hell out of me.

So, now instead of being safely and comfortable back on stable ground, I’m still hanging out on the high limb.  Only this time, the limb is coated in lots of sugar.  And believe me, it’s making me anything but sweet.

I’m trying to do all the right things.  I’m eating well, I’m active, and trying to lose more weight, but the medications are failing, and diabetes is doing what it does best: kicking me while I’m down.

So, I’m at a crossroads.  Do I try other oral medications or do I try a combination of oral meds and injectibles?  Or do I just say screw it, and tell the doctor that I just want to give insulin therapy a try.  I know she won’t like that option, but I’m willing to try anything right now.  And ultimately, it is my decision.  Right?!

Anyway, I know this rough patch will pass.   I just have to hold on to this limb for a little while longer, and hope to hell that the next option to pass my way won’t just take a leak on the tree.

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What A Week! – DBW Day 7

Today is Day seven of Diabetes Blog Week and that means this year’s event is coming to a close.  Fittingly, today’s writing challenge is one of reflection.  Today, we are to look back on the last week, or on diabetic life since we found the D-OC, and talk about what we’ve learned.  So, here goes nothing.

As I sit here struggling to figure out how to summarize this last week,  the one thought that comes to mind is

“WOW! What an emotional roller coaster ride that was!”

I love Diabetes Blog Week, reading all of the awesome blog posts of all the other participants, and even taking on the challenge of writing my own response to the daily prompts.  And that’s exactly what I’ve done this week.  I must confess, though, that it’s been far more challenging than I thought it would be.

I’ve been in what I would call “blood glucose hell” for the last two weeks since my doctor changed my diabetes medication.  It’s just not working, my blood glucose levels have been high, and we all know that high BGs can lead to emotional issues. Well, that’s where I’ve been this week.  And it’s made writing a lot harder than usual. I tried to take more of a light hearted approach in responding to the prompts, but many ended up far more serious than I had hoped.

I’ve felt bad about that at times, but as I look back at the posts and all of the wonderful comments that I received on them, I’ve been reminded of a few things:  There’s nothing wrong with sharing raw emotion, and I’m not the only one feeling these things.  And reading the blogs of everyone else has reconfirmed that even more.

The sheer number of participants in Diabetes Blog Week underscores one immutable universal truth, We are not alone in this fight.  That there are people who “get it.”  And there is no reason for any PWD to ever feel alone.

This whole event should bring a moment of pause to everyone involved.  Just stop and think about this:

If the idea and effort of one person can bring so many of us together for a week of online diabetes advocacy and fellowship, just imagine what could happen if the same ideas and efforts were taken offline.

Many thanks to Karen for organizing this amazing event, and congrats on another successful Diabetes Blog Week!

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Diabetes Snapshots – DBW Day 6

Day six of Diabetes Blog Week is all about Diabetes Snapshots.  This is the only topic that was continued from last year.  And the photos will speak for themselves. For the most part anyway. 😉 Enjoy!

A Birdie for Diabetes!

A birdie for diabetes


We’re All Underdogs

My UNDERDOG sticker

 

Meeting Ben Vereen, PWD Type 2

Me & Ben Vereen

 

Helping Alabama

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Day of AWEsomeness – DBW Day 5

Day five of Diabetes Blog Week is all about the awesome things that have come to our lives because of Diabetes.  And rather than writing, I decided to do a vlog, with shout outs to Mike, Cherise, Meredith, Kelly R. Alexis and Justice, Victoria and Kerri.  Enjoy!

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Diabetes Blog Week – Day 5 List

Due to the Blogger outage, Karen is unable to post today’s Diabetes Blog Week list  link on her blog.

ADD Your posts for Day 5 of Diabetes Blog Week Here:

http://www.blenza.com/linkies/links.php?owner=KarenBitterSweet&postid=04May2011a

Also, here is this prompt for those who need it:

Awesome things – Friday 5/13: In February the #dsma blog carnival challenged us to write about the most awesome thing we’d done DESPITE diabetes.  Today let’s put a twist on that topic and focus on the good things diabetes has brought us.  What awesome thing have you (or your child) done BECAUSE of diabetes?  After all, like my blog header says, life with diabetes isn’t all bad!

Did you use a WildCard topic? Add it to the D-Myths-Wildcard Link List or the Step outside the box-Wildcard Link List.

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I Hate You, Diabetes! – DBW Day 4

Day four of Diabetes Blog Week is all about hating on diabetes.  The task is to come up with a list of 10 things that you hate about diabetes.  I had hoped to do a top ten video blog, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I wouldn’t be able to make it through the list without crying on the video.  Hell, I couldn’t make it through writing the list without the waterworks. You should grab the tissues before continuing…

From a distance, I often seem to be the most upbeat and positive person around when it comes to my life with type 2 diabetes and congestive heart failure.  Some would say that I make dealing with these conditions seem so easy.  If they only knew the hell that I battle through each day, they’d see that there is nothing easy about it at all.  And they’d also come to see that there is often a great deal of bitterness and resentment towards these conditions lurking just below the cheery disposition they are so used to seeing.

I hate the pain I experience each time a lancet or needle pierces my skin for a test.  And I hate that my fingers bleed forever after a test because of the blood thinners I have to take because of my heart.

I hate that a lancet can be used until the damn steel pin breaks off, yet a test strip can only be used once.  And I really can’t stand the fact that test strips cost so fucking much for us to buy, yet cost next to nothing for the manufacturers to produce.

There are days that I truly hate knowing what life without diabetes is like.  You definitely can miss what you do know to be possible.  And I often feel so guilty knowing there are people who have never known what it’s like to be diabetes free.

I hate hearing about another child who has been diagnosed and cheated out of that experience, and hate hearing of another adult who has been stripped  of the lives they once knew.

And my heart breaks a little more with each report of another life stolen by this god awful disease.  I hate the fear that my own life, or that of my friends & family members could be taken in the same way.

I hate knowing that dear friends are hurting and going through hell because of this disease, and knowing that all I can do is offer a hug and the seemingly meaningless words “Hang in there.”

I hate being a problem solver and knowing that diabetes is one problem for which there is no solution.

Most of all, I just hate feeling so damn… helpless…

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Way to go, Genius! – DBW Day 3

Day three of Diabetes Blog Week is all about Diabetes Bloopers.  Occasionally, the most basic aspects of diabetes management prove too challenging for some folks.  Stick with me and you’ll see what I mean.

Have you ever noticed that when you hear someone say the words “Way to go, Genius!”, it is rarely meant as a complement?  Maybe it’s just me, but when I hear that, I know in my mind the person was really wanting to yell “Hey dumb-ass, you screwed up! ”

Occasionally, I find myself thinking and saying the very same things to myself after suffering from a flash of brilliance (read brain fart).  And we all know that life with diabetes certainly provides opportunities for brain farts on a regular basis.  More often than not, a lack of patience is to blame for them.  When I’m in a rush, it’s so easy for the basics to be overlooked, and funny things happen.

Like the many times that I’ve tried to poke my finger with a lancing device that contained no lancet.  Or that did contain a lancet, but the cap hadn’t been removed.  It’s amazing how well those things work when loaded properly.

And I know this will come as a complete shock to everyone, but it’s a whole lot easier to test your blood sugars if you take the time to put a test strip in the meter before you poke your finger.  Kinda helps avoid that whole “hold the bloody finger out of the way while trying to juggle a meter and test strip vial” scenario that is just so enjoyable.  But hey, if you enjoy playing 50 strip pickup, go ahead and give that juggling exercise a try.

Of course, a properly loaded lancing device and poking my fingers are completely pointless if there aren’t test strips in my meter case.  It helps to actually replace the empty test strip vial immediately instead of waiting.  Nothing worse than being at work, needing to test your blood sugars, and discovering that procrastination led to forgetting to pack your supplies.

Oh, and meters are small and portable for a reason; They are meant to be carried with you.  A meter will do you no good at all if it is left behind.  I’m not going to tell you how or why I know that. 🙂

As usual, there are lessons to be learned here.  The first is that being able to laugh at yourself is a good thing. The second is that sometimes, being considered a genius and a dumb-ass can be the same thing.  And finally, an ability to exercise patience, or a lack of it, can be what determines the outcome of lesson number two.

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