11 Years of Living

Today is the 11th anniversary of my initial diagnosis with Type 2 Diabetes and Congestive Heart Failure. My goodness, what a rollercoaster ride it has been.  Many things have changed since that day in late December 2008. My diabetes diagnosis chief among them.  I actually live with LADA (Latent Autoimmune Diabetes in Adults) or Type 1.5.

Wow, eleven years. Eleven years of knowing, caring, surviving, and sharing.

Eleven years of knowing that I have two invisible chronic illnesses for which there are no cures. Eleven years of knowing that I’m not alone in my fight.  That there are millions of others fighting the same things. Eleven years of getting to know some of the most amazing people around.  Lots of love to everyone in the Diabetes Online Community.

Eleven years of caring more about my well being.  Eleven years of doing everything I possibly could to beat the odds against me.  Eleven years of caring for those around me, both online and offline.  Eleven years of being me.

Eleven years of surviving the many challenges before me.  Eleven years of enduring the daily routines required to stay alive.  Eleven years of painful medical procedures and tests to monitor changes both good and bad.

Eleven years of sharing my story with the world.  Sharing both my victories and my defeats, showing what it’s really like to live with these conditions.  Sharing the message that it is possible to live well with both. And that there is no shame in being diagnosed with them.

Eleven years of a little heart doing big things.

You’ve surely noticed the repetition in this post by now, and you may very well be ready to leave it.  And, honestly, I really can’t blame you.  I’d love to leave it all behind too.  But I can’t.  That’s life with a confusing pancreas and broken heart.

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World Diabetes Day 2019

Today is World Diabetes Day.  Today we honor Dr. Frederick G. Banting, who was born November 14, 1891, and who is best known for having co-discovered insulin.   Happy 128th Birthday, Dr. B.

I’m also wearing my blue in recognition and support of people living with all types of diabetes. We’re all in this together.

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This Thing Called Diabetes Life

“Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to get through this thing called life.” ~ Prince

This thing called diabetes life.

That’s why I’m here.  That’s why My Diabetic Heart is here.  It’s here because I was diagnosed with what was long thought to be type 2 diabetes, and also with congestive heart failure, at age 24.

I started writing here as a way to document what I was going through with the scary, life-changing diagnoses that had been dropped in my lap.  Writing helped me then and still does when I’m able to find the time and get the words I want to say out of my head.

As I continued sharing my story through the blog and other social media avenues, I found that what I was sharing helped other people who were going through some of the same things that I was.  I found people who understood.  I found community.  I found encouragement and support.  I found people who genuinely care and many are dear friends to this day.

They are my tribe.  They help me get through this thing called diabetes life.  And everything else that comes along for that matter.  And I love them for that.

My tribe consists of people from all walks of life.  Some live with Type 1 diabetes. Some live with Type 2 diabetes.  Some folks, like myself, have LADA.  Some have had gestational diabetes during pregnancy.  Some are parents of children with type 1. Some are children who have parents with diabetes. Some are spouses of PWD.  Some are just friends who support the cause.  And some are just Type Weird.

Personally, I think we’re all Type Screwed.  And that’s what should unite all of us.

At the end of the day, regardless of the type of diabetes a person may have, there are a few things that we all need in order to live well with the hand we’ve been dealt.

We all need and deserve access to good doctors, medications and supplies, and diabetes education.

We all need and deserve proper treatment regimens, tailored to our personal diabetes management needs by our doctors and not insurance company bean counters.

And last, but just as important, we absolutely must have the love and support of family and friends.  Living with all types of diabetes is hell.  And we really shouldn’t have to go through this alone.

We need better.  We deserve better.  And together we can achieve better.

Together, we just might get through this diabetes life.   Lots of Love, Everyone.

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Remembering Cherie Rineker

Sometimes, people come into our lives to teach us things. They teach us how to live fully, to love unconditionally, to stand up for our beliefs and for others. And while some may only be with us for a season, they leave an indelible mark on our lives.

Cherie Rineker was one of those people for me. I was fortunate to have met her at the HealtheVoices conference in April. Cherie was a multiple myeloma patient and staunch advocate for the cancer community and patients in general. Hearing her speak was amazing. She had such a bright and vibrant personality. So much energy. So kind and warm in conversation. I treasure the time we spent chatting throughout that weekend.

I’ve followed Cherie’s journey in the six short months since we met and have watched in awe as she faced each step of it with such strength and grace. Life was lived on her own terms and it ended on her terms today with the help of Death with Dignity.



My heart hurts for her children, family, and close friends. I wish them all peace, comfort, and strength during this difficult time. I wish the same for the many friends that she had in the cancer community and the HealtheVoices family.

By bittersweet coincidence, Cherie’s journey ended on my mother’s birthday. That’s significant for me because mom has had her own battle with cancer. And they were same age.

While I’m deeply saddened by the loss of my friend, I’m forever thankful for the life lessons that Cherie has imparted in the short time that I’ve known her. She had a great big heart and did great big things. 

Be at peace, my friend.

Cherie Rineker
12/7/67 – 10/23/19

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Choosing Life and Sobriety

As this is Mental Illness Awareness Week (October 6-October 12) and addiction and substance abuse are a part of mental health, I wanted to share something here that I shared publicly on Facebook for the first time last month during National Sober Day.

I don’t talk about it much, but alcoholism runs deep in my veins, much like it did my father who was an abusive alcoholic when I was a child. There was once a time when I could and would drink you under the table. The hard stuff was like water in my system. I loved the taste of it and the burn as it went down. But no longer.

All of that changed for me when I was diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure in December 2008. The condition and treatments made it imperative that I give up those vices. And my diagnosis came 7 months after my father died of a massive heart attack. Yet another way in which I did not want to be like him. So, I chose life and sobriety.

It hasn’t been easy fighting those urges that are ingrained in me. I’ve lost friends, have been left out, and often feel like the odd man out at gatherings because I don’t drink, but my life and wellbeing are worth the struggle. I have no issues with those who do drink, it’s just not for me anymore.

December 29, 2019 will mark 11 years for me.

If you’re on the path of sobriety, I commend you and support your efforts. Keep going and know that you’re not alone.

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2019 WEGO Health Award Nominations

I am honored to announce that I have been nominated in three award categories for the 2019 WEGO Health Awards. Those categories are Best in Show: Blog, Healthcare Collaborator: Patient, and Patient Leader Hero.

The WEGO Health Awards were created to celebrate those who tirelessly support the mission of WEGO Health: to empower the patient voice. With 15 award categories, the WEGO Health Awards are the only awards across all conditions and platforms, that recognize the over 100 thousand inspiring Patient Leaders who raise awareness, share information, and support their communities – but often without recognition.

It is humbling to be nominated for these awards alongside so many other amazing advocates who work so incredibly hard to make a difference for those living with a wide array of Chronic Illnesses.  My sincere thanks to everyone else who has nominated me or endorsed me.  I ‘m truly grateful for your kindness and support.

This year’s WEGO Health Award winners will be honored at an in-person celebration at the HLTH Conference October 27th – 30th, 2019 in Las Vegas.

I’m now looking to my incredibly supportive network to help endorse me for these awards.  There are two easy ways to endorse that only take seconds of your time!

1) You can click on my endorsement badges located on the right side of this page.

2) Click here to be taken to my WEGO Health Awards profile where you can click “Endorse” under my nominee photo.

The Endorsement (Voting) period is open until July 28th.

If I have ever supported you, made you laugh, or inspired you to keep fighting – please consider endorsing me for these awards.

Remember, A Little Heart Can Do Big Things.

Thank you!

Mike Durbin

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A Heart Filled with Gratitude

So, it’s been a week now since HealtheVoices19 wrapped up in Dallas. What an amazing weekend of connections, education, empowerment and support it was. I’m still trying to wrap my head around everything that happened at the conference and find the words to capture the experience for a blog post. I hope to share that in the next couple of days. Today, though, I wanted to say thanks to everyone who made the experience possible.

A Little Heart Can Do Big Things wristband

This year’s theme, “A Little Heart Can Do Big Things”, was inspired by the wristbands that I shared at last year’s conference. The words are my personal mantra, stemming from my experience with congestive heart failure, and it has been exciting and humbling for me to see that simple message of hope and encouragement grow and blossom into the theme of the amazing conference that we experienced in Dallas. While the message may have come from my voice, it took the voices and efforts of many to bring it to life. I’m forever grateful for them.

Molly

First, I have to thank my friend and fellow diabetes advocate, Molly Schreiber, for her belief in that message and for suggesting the idea to the HealtheVoices team via Twitter last year. I wish I could have thanked her in person, but I know she heard that message from home. So, thank you, Molly!

Second, I have to thank Caroline Pavis and Rebecca Genin from Janssen for hearing that suggestion and taking action as they always do. I’ll admit that I was shocked and a bit dumbfounded when they approached me after open mic night last year and asked if they could announce that as the theme during closing remarks at the end of HealtheVoices18. What an honor. My sincere thanks to everyone from Janssen, Johnson & Johnson, Evoke, the photography crew, and anyone else that my overwhelmed brain may be forgetting, for your hard work and dedication to making HealtheVoices19 a success.

Third, I have to give a big thanks to the incredible group of advocates with whom I had the privilege of serving alongside on the 2019 Advisory Panel. Rick, Hetlena, Shawn, Lisa, Jesus, AnnMarie, and Gabriel. Thank you all so much.

The HealtheVoices 2019 Advisory Panel with Becky and Caroline

And finally, I have to thank all of you. The attendees of HealtheVoices19. Thank you for taking the time away from your families, jobs, and other responsibilities to spend a weekend sharing your stories and little hearts with the rest of us. It was great meeting so many first-time attendees and welcoming them into the family, and reconnecting with veteran attendees who have become good friends. And if we didn’t have a chance to connect, or you didn’t get a wristband, please reach out to me here or via social media. I welcome the opportunity to change that. Either way, I hope that all of your hearts were as full as mine as you returned home.

It’s important to remember that advocacy efforts do not have to be big. The smallest efforts can make the biggest difference in your life and the lives of others. Thank you all for making a difference in mine.

Always remember that with A little effort, a little determination, a little hope and inspiration, YOUR little hearts can do BIG things!

With Gratitude and Love.
Mike Durbin


Disclosure: Janssen Global Services covered my expenses to attend this conference, but all opinions and thoughts about the event are strictly my own.

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Playing catch-up

So, it’s been a while since I last updated the blog and some things have happened in that time that I feel a need to write about. This will be a bit long, so bear with me.


Esophageal Manometry
On January 29th, my new gastroenterologist had me undergo a test called Esophageal Manometry. The test is used to measure the functionality of the muscles and lower sphincter of the esophagus and determine if there are issues.

The procedure wasn’t the most pleasant of ways to spend a morning. To begin, I was given a cup of lidocaine gel to swallow and then a syringe full of the same gel was emptied into my left nostril. A thin probe was then passed through my nostril and down into my esophagus. I was then placed on an exam table. Once I was as comfortable as I could be, the technician began a series of tests, in which I was given a syringe of saline to swallow. I could only swallow one time and had to focus on my breathing to keep from swallowing again until the tech had finished counting to 10. It was a lot harder than you might think. The process was repeated about 12 times to ensure there were good images for the doctors to analyze. By the time it was over my throat was incredibly sore, as the lidocaine that I was given at the start had worn off quickly. Honestly, it might as well have been water for all the good it did.

The results that I received on February 18 confirmed that I am dealing with some motility issues in my esophagus. The nurse practitioner told me that there are a number of different conditions that could be causing the issue, including a rare condition called Achalasia, but since I don’t meet all of the criteria for any one in particular, they can’t say for sure what’s going on. So, in the absence of that cause, the NP went to the old standby and basically told me it was all caused by my being a fat guy with uncontrolled type 1 diabetes. Yep, more patient blaming and shaming from a medical professional. I wish I could have mustered the fiery rebuttal that the situation called for at the time, but was left speechless. Instead, I left the office demoralized and ready to throw the towel in all together. For now, I’m just trying to do what I can to get by.


Dexcom G6 Upgrade
It took more than a month of fighting with my insurance company and Edgepark Medical Supplies, but I was finally approved to upgrade to the Dexcom G6 CGM system at the beginning of February. My starter kit arrived on Feb. 5th.

I was a bit confused when the package arrived from Edgepark containing only one G6 transmitter and one box of G6 sensors. I had been accustomed to my G5 orders containing two transmitters at a time, but learned that the supplier only sends one G6 transmitter at a time now. And their was a mix-up with the sensor order that resulted in only one box being sent. That has since been corrected and I now have two new boxes of sensors.

The first month with the G6 system has gone fairly well. I’m definitely liking that I don’t have to stick my fingers as much as I had been and the lack of needing to calibrate multiple times a day. And I’m a fan of the lower profile of the sensor and transmitter when it is attached to my body. I’ll share more on all of this at a later time. For now, though, things are going well.


Medication Changes
I had an appointment with my endocrinologist on March 6th to followup on labs and discuss how things have been going over the last several months. To say that I’ve been struggling with my diabetes management since my gastroparesis diagnosis was confirmed would be an understatement. It’s been one hell of a roller coaster ride, especially since I had to stop taking Trulicity which had worked wonders in helping to lower my blood glucose levels.

As expected, my A1C was up this time around. It was 8.4. Considering all of the high numbers that I’ve been seeing, I was expecting something in the 9s. Either way, it is what it is. A number. My Endo and I both took it as an indicator that we should look at making some changes with my medications. So, that’s what we’ve done.

We decided that I would give Tresiba a try for my basal insulin. I’ve used Lantus for a long time and we thought it was time for something newer and more potent. I’ve been on it for about two weeks now and have seen some difference in my numbers. Time will tell if this was a good move or not. We also decided that I since I’ve been dealing with repeated yeast infections while on Farxiga, I would stop using that immediately. And because of my need for something to help with insulin resistance, I asked about going back to Metformin XR (extended release) for a while to see if it would make a difference. I had some success with Metformin 10 years ago when I was initially diagnosed and felt it worth a try again. My options are limited due to the gastroparesis, so I’m hoping these changes will work for a while. Again, time will tell.


What’s Next?

There are a lot of exciting things coming up for me in the next few weeks. My 35th birthday is on March 28th and I’m looking forward to celebrating with some local friends on that day, and then going to see Lewis Black on Friday. I managed to secure front-row seats for the show, so it was a nice birthday gift to myself.

And then comes the HealtheVoices conference in Dallas, TX on April 12-14. I’m super excited to be able to take part in this wonderful gathering again.
It’s going to be great.

Well, that’s about it for now. If you’ve stuck with me this far, I thank you for reading. Until next time, take care and remember that a little heart can do big things.

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Loving Your Heart This Month

Today is the first day of February and with it comes the beginning of American Heart Month.  This month we focus on raising awareness of heart disease and all of its various forms, risk factors, steps to prevent and treat the disease, etc…

As we start this month, I’d like to ask you a question.  How will you love your heart this month?

Personally, I’m going to try to be more active and focus on eating a heart-healthy diet.  I plan to walk more each day and find ways to squeeze more steps in during my breaks at work and in my downtime.  I’m also working on making dietary changes due to my recent gastroparesis diagnosis and those changes are sure to have the added benefit of being good for my heart as well.

So, I ask again, how will you love your heart this month?  Tell me in the comments below.  Cheers!

 

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Then and Now: Reflecting on 10 Years

I’m really not a fan of the “how hard did aging hit you” challenge that’s floating around social media right now. The idea that aging is something to be ashamed of is totally bogus.  Still, I see this as a good time for reflection and gratitude for the time I didn’t expect to live.

The photo on the left was taken in October 2008, two months before I was diagnosed with congestive heart failure and what was then believed to be type 2 diabetes. I was near death and didn’t yet know it. When I was diagnosed on December 29, 2008, the doctors didn’t think I’d live another 3 months.

A lot has happened since then. There have been some scares and times when I didn’t think I was going to be around much longer. And yes, even times when I didn’t want to be here.

Still, here I am.

The photo on the right was taken on December 31, 2018, after having marked 10 years of living with my diagnoses.

My health challenges are still there. Some improved, some more complicated, all tiring and expensive. And never-ending.

Still, I’m thankful for the time I’ve had that I didn’t expect to live.

Cheers!

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