Sorry Doc, Quitting isn’t an Option!

Have you ever sat in a meeting hall and listened to a presentation and suddenly realized that the hypothetical person the speaker was talking about could  very easily be YOU?  Most of us have that sort of experience at some point or another.  I had one of them during a session at AADE12 in Indianapolis a few weeks ago.

The session was titled “The Other 8 Hours: How Sleep Affects Achieving Glycemic Goals.”

As someone who doesn’t get a whole lot of sleep for various reasons, I was interested in hearing what the speaker had to say about the impact that a lack of sleep has on things.  I mean, I know from experience what the impact can be, but I wanted to hear a medical professional’s point of view.  As the speaker worked her way through the slides and made mention of overweight shift-workers who have obstructive sleep apnea, heart disease, diabetes, depression, etc…, I couldn’t help but think “Hey, that’s ME!”

As the speaker continued on to a section of slides on dealing with patients who fit that description, she made the statement that “We can’t just tell our patients to quit those jobs.”  At that point, the wheels in my head were turning. I thought, “well no, people can’t quit those jobs because they have to have insurance to help pay for the supplies needed to survive!” As the presentation was wrapping up, I was busy jotting out my thoughts on the subject so that I could address it during the Q&A period at the end.  And when it came time, I made my way to the microphone.

I introduced myself, gave the elevator version of my diagnosis story, then hit with my thought and question.

“Most of us living with diabetes and complications while working night shifts can’t afford to give up those jobs because of the insurance needed to pay for treatments.  We feel trapped in these jobs because we fear being without that benefit. And even those with insurance struggle to pay for things.  So my question is: What advice would you give to help patients to help them make the best of their situation and minimize the impact on their diabetes management?”

The response? “Just quit and find a new job.”  Given that the speaker had previously said “we can’t just tell our patients to quit those jobs,”  I was far less than thrilled with that answer, but I took it for what it was worth and returned to my seat.

The fact of the matter is there are millions of us stuck in similar situations because of insurance and per-existing conditions.  We need sound advice and viable solutions.  I’m sorry Doc, but quitting our job isn’t a viable solution.

If nothing else, the session provided me the opportunity to share my patient experience with those charged with caring for patients.  Hopefully, my question got folks thinking about what can be done to help folks like me make the best of the difficult situation in which we find ourselves.

And if one other patient benefits from that, it will have been worth it.

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Wordless Wednesday: 10 Years Ago

My high school senior portrait. If only I could go back 10 years.

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Everyone has a Bomb

It’s been two weeks since the 4th Roche Social Media Summit wrapped up in Indianapolis, and this is my first post post about it.  Better late than never, right?

To be honest, I don’t know what I can say about the gathering that hasn’t already been said by other attendees.  There have been a number of great posts written about the event already.  Still, I feel obligated share my thoughts as well.

The one thing that has stuck with me over the last two weeks has been the session with guest speaker Josh Bleill, community spokesman of the Indianapolis Colts.

Josh was on combat patrol in Fallujah Iraq on October 15, 2006, when a bomb exploded under the humvee he was in. The blast left two marines dead, and Josh and his best friend were severely wounded.

After 5 days in a coma, Josh woke to the news of what happened and that both of his legs were amputated as a result.

After two years of rehab and uncertainty about the future, Josh is now working for the Colts. His job? Sharing his story and message of overcoming great challenges.

Like others in the room that day, I didn’t get why Roche had him there at first. I mean, what did this have to do with diabetes and our community? And how was this applicable to me?

Well, the more I listened, the clearer the connection became. Josh said,

“Everyone has a bomb that goes off in their lives at some point.”

He was referring to those life altering events that blindside us from time to time. The death of a loved one, being diagnosed with a life threatening medical condition, losing a job, etc… All bombs that disrupt everything with they go off.

For me, the “bomb” was being diagnosed with type 2 diabetes and congestive heart failure.  My struggles with each are well documented in this blog.  As are my fears of dying in my sleep because of my heart.  And despite how far I’ve come, there are times when I’m still haunted by those fears.

Something happened the following morning that I kind of laughed off at the time but, in all honesty, really troubled me.  I didn’t wake until three hours after my alarms went off.  Three hours after the morning’s activities had started.  I made it down to the meeting room and slipped in just before the final guest speaker of the summit was introduced.  No one had noticed that I wasn’t in the meeting room that morning.  If so, no one said anything. Sure, that stuff happens to everyone but for some it causes more mental  anguish than you’d ever realize.

I couldn’t help but think about what Josh had said.  “Everyone has a bomb that goes off in their lives at some point.”  And the more I thought about it, the more my fears came roaring to the front of my mind.  What if I hadn’t woke up?  What if the time bomb in my chest had finally gone off?  How long would it have been before anyone noticed?  Who would find me?  Who would call April?

I can’t tell you how many sleepless nights have spent thinking those very thoughts during the last three and a half years.  More than I care to admit and more than you want to hear about, I’m sure.

Josh ended his presentation by thanking everyone in the room that morning for sharing their story and doing the work they do.  All I could think about was thanking him for the sacrifices he made defending the freedoms that allow us to do what we do.  Before he left, I thanked him personally and shook his hand.

A reminder: take nothing in life for granted.  You never know when everything will come to an end.


Disclaimer: Roche paid for the gas used to drive to Indy, hotel accommodations, and meals associated with my attending the 2012 Social Media Summit in Indianapolis, Indiana.  I was not asked to write about the summit, nor was I coached on what to say and not to say. My thoughts are just that..my thoughts!

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Wordless Wednesday: Back to the Wild

The beautiful black swallowtail butterfly that April & I released into the wild upon my return from Indianapolis. It emerged from it’s cocoon while I was at AADE 12.

 

The cool little caterpillar that came in on flowers that April brought in from the garden. He turned into the butterfly pictured above. 🙂

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Everyday Health Feature

In the middle of June, I was interviewed by Everyday Health for an article that was being written on folks in their late teens and early twenties being diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. This morning, I was notified via Google Alert that the article had been published this week.

The final product of that interview turned out to be a feature on my life with type 2.  You can find it here:

Diagnosis: Type 2 Diabetes. Age: 24.

Give it a read and let me know what you think.

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Photos: Chalk Walk

The Three Rivers Festival is underway in Fort Wayne this week and one of mine and April’s favorite events to checkout is the Chalk Walk.  For two days, a portion of a busy downtown street is closed off and artists from all over the area gather to create works using chalk as their medium and a square of hot asphalt as their canvas.  April and I went to check it out last night.  Camera in tow, of course.

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Have any favorites?  Drop a comment and let me know.

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Almost Wordless Wednesday: Social Butterflies

I took April and her dad to the botanical conservatory on Sunday to see the Butterflies of Malaysia exhibition before it closed. Some of the little creatures were quite social.

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Lantus and the Power Outage.

My first blog post about adding insulin to my type 2 diabetes management regimen was going to be an inspired tale about my doing what’s best for me and taking the step of asking my doctor about making that change.  It was going to be about my recognition of the fact that I had tried many different medications in an effort to find one that would work well for me for more than a few months.  And it was going to be about my acceptance of the fact that my type 2 diabetes had progressed and that adding insulin was the next step.

Now, nearly two months after I made that change, my intended blog post still hasn’t happened.  I’m not exactly sure why I haven’t written about it yet.  Could be the fact that April’s mom died a few days after I started taking the Lantus and I’ve been consumed by the aftermath of that life changing event.  Could be that I’ve been nervous about writing about it.  Perhaps even a mix of both.  What really matters, though, is that I’m writing about it now.

And now, having gone through 6 extremely hot days without electricity at my apartment due to the “land hurricane” that ripped through Fort Wayne on June 29th, I have a better understanding of what it’s like to struggle with keeping my insulin and Byetta pens safe during an extended power outage.  It totally sucks, but it’s just another thing I have to deal with.

With more than half of the county without power, including Walmart, finding a place to buy supplies was a bit of a challenge.  I finally found a place that was open and bought a 3-day cooler, 2 cases of bottled water, batteries for my lanterns and flashlights, and a battery powered fan to use when trying to sleep.  I say trying because lets face it, no one with asthma isn’t going to get much sleep in a 95 degree apartment.

The first of ice to fill the cooler came courtesy of the electric company, who setup a supply station in an old shopping center.  That 20 pounds of free ice was greatly appreciated.  I put my insulin and Byetta pens in a medicool bag and placed that in a zip-lock bag before placing it in the cooler.  That not only kept the meds cool, but also ensured that no water would get into the bag if the ice melted while I was at work.  And it worked pretty well.  And I now know what to do the next time something like that happens and have all of the supplies I need to do so.

I know things could have been a lot worse for me during that week and I’m thankful that I didn’t lose more than the food in my fridge and freezer, but I’d rather not go through that again any time soon.

The experience is another reminder that we should take nothing for granted.  Nothing lasts forever.

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Photos: Angola Balloons Aloft

On Saturday, I spent the evening with April and her dad in Angola, IN, taking in the awesomeness that was the 3rd Annual Angola Balloons Aloft.  It’s essentially a festival devoted to hot air balloons.

I’ve wanted to attend the festival since it started but always had something else going on.  This year, however, I wasn’t letting anything keep me from going.  Not even the 100 degree temperatures that have scorched the area the last several days.  By the time we got to the airport where the festival was held, the temps were a bit cooler and a nice breeze made it bearable.

We only caught the last two hours of the event, but it was more than enough time to enjoy some of the usual festival foods and take in the balloon glow that concluded the evening festivities.  And, of course, pictures were taken.  Enjoy!

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Simon says: Let’s meet in Indy!

So, Simon said he was going to be in the U.S. for a month and wanted to see as many people and places as possible while here.  And then Simon said he would be traveling to Indianapolis for a couple of days and wanted to meet with DOC folks from the area.  And when Simon says he’ll be in town, we members of the Diabetes Online Community do our damnedest to be there, too.  And this past Saturday, we were.

Back row: Jeff, Marie, Me, Simon, Suzi & Mike Hoskins, and Bea. Front row: Libby Hogan, Michael & Melissa Schwab.

Simon arrived in Indy early Saturday morning, after a wild and crazy adventure that can only be described as a remake of the movie Planes, Trains and Automobiles.  And was met by Mike Hoskins, with whom he stayed while in town.

I drove to Indy from Fort Wayne that afternoon and, after checking in at the hotel, headed downtown to Monument Circle to catch up with Simon, Mike and Suzi.  It was so awesome getting to meet Simon in person and hang out with him while he took in the sights of downtown Indianapolis.  Simon took several photos of the Soldiers & Sailors Monument and I’d snap a photo of him from time to time.  At one point, he noticed me doing so and busted out laughing.  There’s nothing like capturing pure, spontaneous emotion on camera. That photo is in the gallery below.

Simon and Me

Our touristy shenanigans drew to a close as the time for our meetup with the rest of the group quickly approached.  We found our way back to our cars and set out for more D-meetup fun at Dave & Busters on the north side of Indy.  There we met up with Marie & Bea, who drove to Indy from the Chicago area, and Jeff, Libby Hogan, and Michael & Melissa Schwab who live in the Indy area.

And to the best of my knowledge we all had a great time.  There were lots of great conversations, incredibly over-sized portions of delicious foods, and  a seemingly endless supply of diet coke, and there were also a few special gifts for Simon.

Mike Hoskins somehow came up with the idea of creating “Wanted” posters for the occasion and sent me the images to be printed, which I did before heading to Indy.  The poster reads:  Wanted for Excess Musical Lyric Tweets, Simon, International PWD of Mystery. Contact: #DSMA Wed. 9-10P EST. Reward: Diet Coke.  Everyone got a kick out of them.

I caught Simon and got my Diet Coke!

Mike mentioned that Simon also got a kick out of the plush pancreas that Suzi had given Mike this past Christmas, and I just happened to have mine in the car.  So, I donated mine to Simon. Because, you know, he needed another non-functioning pancreas.  And that’s what friends do. 🙂

And last but not least, there was the DOC t-shirt.  When I heard that Simon was going to be visiting and that a meetup was being planned, I decided I wanted us to be able to give him something special to commemorate his trip.  So, I had a t-shirt made bearing the DOC logo I created during Diabetes Art Day last September, and presented Simon with it on Saturday.  Everyone signed it for him, and he’ll be carrying it to other meetups during the remainder of his time in the U.S. so others can sign it as well.  It is, in fact, a gift that keeps on giving.

There was something of a speech that went along with that gift, but Simon may have been the only one who heard it.  It was quite simply that we, the DOC, are indeed a global community.  As the slogan on the shirt says, we are “Separated by Miles, United by a Cause”.  In my mind, Simon embodies that.  And I am in awe of the commitment and effort he has put into making that 10,000 mile journey from Australia to the U.S., not once but twice.  Just for the opportunity to meet with other people with diabetes.  People with whom he had become friends via this wild and crazy thing we call the internet and social media.  It’s pretty incredible, really.  I’m proud to have been able to give him that shirt and I feel blessed to have had the opportunity to do so in person and among other DOC friends.

OK, so that was a bit heavy.  And I’m feeling a bit emotional.  But, it’s how I feel.   The whole meetup was an incredible experience and, honestly, I’m still processing all of it.

The rest of our time at Dave & Buster’s was spent conversing and shooting a few friendly rounds of pool.  Who knew that Suzi was such a pool shark?  She beat me twice!  And Simon, well… he beat us both!

As with all good things, our meetup came to an end. Well before some of us wanted it to.  We said our goodbyes and parted ways.  Maria, Bea and I were staying in the same hotel, and decided to hang for a bit longer before calling it a night.  And the three of us had breakfast together at Denny’s before parting ways Sunday morning.  They were off to Chicago-land and I headed for a meetup with my family south of Indy.

In all, it was a fantastic weekend.  I enjoyed every minute spent with everyone, and I’m so looking forward to more meetups in the future.

And, if Simon says lets meet in Indy again, I’m there!

 

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